a quick blog

John 13:1
Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love

John 14:2
2There are many rooms in my Father's home, and I am going to prepare a place for you. If this were not so, I would tell you plainly.

Oh God !! I cant go to bed a single night in this month without remembering dad!!!
if only I can separate the good memories from the bad ones... But I cant !! I wonder if every christmas will be the same... this doesnt feel much of celebration

Bible...

Al Ra7'awa la tomsek saydan ...

Tatlobonee fa tagedonee ez tatloboone bekol Qalbekom

Man yo7ebonee ya7faz wassayya . WA ANA A7EBO WA OZHER LAHO ZATTEE !!!

I am listening to Sermons about Songs of Sol. chapter 5 by maher Samuel


" I will reveal myself to him" !!!

11 His head is purest gold;
Ra2soo = Ofkaro , His thoughts ... She started by describing his head

what r his thoughts ?? Rasoohoo zahab ebreez .. Gold in the Bible signifies any thing Godly.
God's thoughts are thoughts of peace ( Jermiah 29 ) afkar Khair ...
James 2:13 For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; Allah 3'air mogareb bel sheroor w howwa la yogareb a7ad
But God's thoughts r DIFFERENT from his ways .. he uses certain ways to teach u somethings ( Deut 8: 2 Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands.) humble u & test u ----> these r God's WAYS not his thoughts..

Psalm 103 : 3araf Mosa Toroqo w banee Isreal Af3aloo .... 1Cor 2 : 11For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.

Too many times His ways r unkown and his thoughts not revealed .. that is when we have to sit silently & wait .. Remember when Moses asked God : show me your Glory ... Ra2a Al Rab men wara2oo = u will see God Later
Why did He saved Peter but not James from being Killed ? That is His ways .. Rev 11 : 7atta yatem ser Allah

his hair is wavy and black as a raven.

Numbers 6 The Nazirite he must let the hair of his head grow long.
This symbolizes Submission to God's will...
1Sam 15 :22 To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
23 For rebellion is like the sin of divination, and arrogance like the evil of idolatry.
jesus was obedient to his parents & to God the father
U may submit sometimes not bkz we want to but bkz we have no way out , even when we sing ( ayoha al fakhaaree al a3zam .... )
Men AgL Al soroor al mawdoo3 amamoo e7tamal el saleeb..
He wants to change us into his own image !!! be submissive, like David ( fa 3ad DAwood wa sa2al al rab ) ( otrokahoo lan al rab qal lahoo seb dawood )

black as a raven ....... He does not change, He does not grow old ... He is the same yesterday today & forver Deut 32:3,4 3 I will proclaim the name of the LORD. Oh, praise the greatness of our God! He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he. Psalm 102 : You are the same ( Anta Anta )

12 His eyes are like doves by the water streams, ----> Meekness & niceness
washed in milk, ---> Pure
mounted like jewels. ----> Pupil stable

She gave 3 description to his eyes :
Meekness : Nazara 7awlahoo -- > Faltafat Yasoo3 w anzar ela Botros ( saved him ) ; Nazara wa ta7anan
if ur heart is pure , ur eyes will be pure.. ur eyes only reflects what is inside
in John 8 He didnt even look so he wouldn't hurt the woman's feelings !!!!
Purity :
Stability: Prov 4 25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. When Satan tried to tempt jesus , NOTHING Tempted him ... his eyes where on the mission he had to accomplish

a song for today .........

I came across this song I was surfing tonite, and it brought back so many memories...
I used to listen to this song all the time in Sister Rom. car when I was in AZ 9 years ago !!! wow !!! 9 years !!! I hummed this song for MONTHS after I came back home ...

O Mighty Cross
O Mighty Cross
Love lifted high
The Lord of Life
raised there to die
His Sacrifice on Calvary
has made the mighty cross
A tree of life to me

O Mighty Cross
what Throne of Grace
He knew no sin yet took my place
His Sacrifice on Calvary
has made the mighty cross
A tree of life to me

O Mighty Cross
O Christ so pure
Love held Him there
such shame endured
His Sacrifice on Calvary
has made the mighty cross
A tree of life to me

O Mighty Cross
my soul's release!
The stripes He bore
have brought me peace
His Sacrifice on Calvary
has made the mighty cross
A tree of life to me

My computer accomplisment *grin*

I haven't blogged for sometime, altho I really want to keep this updated since I LOOOVE looking back to the past & keeping all my memories. My only comfort is there haven't been any wonderful memories to keep in the last ....hmmm... 3 years may be ?? " I am sorry for being whiney , Lord, but this is not the easiest month for me, I am having all the december 2004 memories still fresh in my mind, I avoid thinking about it at all costs, writing about it is another different story !!!

anyway, yesterday was the first day of snow in here!!! Gosh how i hate that !!! of course I enjoy watching it snow , while I am covered with 3 blankets, drinking Cocoa, but it is no fun at all waking at 5 am trying to clean 2 inch of snow off my dear OLD car. The heating system didnt operate much either. After 5 minutes of trying to move one tiny piece of snow of my windshield with no success, I gave up. I dont care what they say at work. I never call in, so I thought I might do it this once. the funny thing is , Saf. called me later during the day and told me she called me at work to check on me, and guess who answered ? it was our dear Mary Poppins !! when saf asked to speak to me, the ever-cheerful mary poppins ranted at her : She is not here today !!! I wonder if she hung up on my friend too !! She is one of a kind , that is all I can say !


anyway, I woke up, mom had an eye apointment ( does that spell with 2 p's?) at the free clinic. So I went down at 3 PM, cleaned my car off snow!! a process that took 15 minutes for only one day of snow, and sunshine was back already!! I wonder how things would be if we had a week of snow or so? I think I will get fired!! when I was growing up we never had snow! i actually never saw snow till I moved here 3 years ago! so I will never adapt to it. I was even foolish enough to go clean snow off my car with no gloves on!! I dont even own leather gloves !! I have about 4 scarfs that I keep tucked in my drawers & never wear them !! oh well!! may be one day I will move either to California or back home ( the only 2 weather-appealing places for me )

we went to the appointment, got lost for 10 minutes. 1000% my fault , the exit sign on the highway said take RIGHT to get to Bouliv. street , and me -being me- took the LEFT signal. anyway, we got there, Sy was there. we chatted of course. The Dr saw mom. she was very sad about her condition ( mom got the branch vien occlusion in her seeing good left eye *sigh*) .
one thing that stiked me, was when I was chatting with the nurse and she asked me if any of mom's children suffer from amblyopia too since it is heriditary & I said I do !! it always escapes my mind that my anisometropia is inherited from my mom ( I even have the same left good eye as her! ) the thing is, my left eye is starting to get tired to quickly lateley, I think I should be a good girl & either start wearing the pair of glasses I already have or get new ones *sigh*
The dr decided to refer mom to a retina specialist. we'll see how things will go from there ....

we came back... and here we come to my PC ACHIEVEMENT of a life time
few weeks ago I was given a combo scanner/copier/printer thing by susan ( along with many junky items that I thru away, but I shouldn't be complaining) . But it was missing the CD for software installment. I tried so many things but nothing actually worked. I told a colleague at work and he told me to install the software online. Now that may seems somthing very predictable for anyone else, but not for me. My PC knowledge is knowing how to press the blue button to start my laptop, and where to place the mouse & then how to shut down ;))
ok ok, I am exaggarting a bit , especially when I see PPL like S. who had studied so many PC courses & yet I have to show her how to do thing sometimes... I guess I am better than *FEW*
back to my story, I went to the "hp" site, downloaded the software " 364 MEGA bytes!!" and did the whole thing ... it took almost 2 hours ... dont know why... I think I have a lot of junk that slows my PC. I wish my brother was here, he would have fixed it for me :(

First Christmas

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below,
With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars,
reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular,
please wipe away the tear,
For I am spending Christmas
withJesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you,
the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description,
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away,
We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones,
You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift,
from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory
of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift
more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important
in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other,
as my Father said to do.
For I can't count the blessing or love
He has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas
and wipe away that tear.
Remember, I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.