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I am at work now, and in the grumpiest mood ever!!
it seems just because I am nice, ppl tend to take advantage of me all the time!! I feel like going to the manager tomorrow & opening the can of worms!!! I mean, if no one hesitates to go & stab me in the back if I make the slightest mistake, why wouldnt I - not stab anybody in the back- but at least demand not to be given more than my share ???!!!!
I think I am becomung more of a loner now. as much as i love being with ppl,if I can find a job where I can work all alone by myself, I would be so happy

the funny thing, that is starting to be an attitude : I go to the grocery store & choose the self-checkout line. I go to the gas station, I choose the self-service & pay outside. EVEN when I go to the library, I choose to check the books for myself !!! I dont know what is wrong with me lately, but if I can save myself one less conversation & the pleasantaries involved, I never hesitate to do it!

Verse on my mind :
"Jesus Christ is the same, yesterday, today & forever " Amen !!

one silly thing happened today, we called H. since Asees is in egypt & mom needed some medicine, so I wanted to remind him of the names of the drugs ( when I called, the first thing mom wanted me to ask him while I was saying hello, she said : ask him if he had supper !! my funny mom! I answered her : well, he has taken an oath on himself not to have supper till u go back to him after 6 months !! ) I mean , she is going to be away for at least 6 months, does she has to worry evernight if he had supper or not? what about the 2 other meals ?;)) besides, for goodness sake, he is not a 6 years old !! but then again , she is a mom, worrying is part of the job *sigh*
Anyway, back to the story, I told him we need this & we need that....... he said ok .. ok ...
then later in the evning, I was checking my mobile, I found he had sent me a msg. He never sent msgs except for business purposes. This time he wrote :" eza kan habeebak 3asal, matel7asoosh kollo" . and the funny thing when he wrote the proverb, he translated it into english, so I was like : what on earth is that ??? then I realised what he mean !! I am still laughing...that silly brother of mine !! sometimes I want to practically kill him, then he does something as adorable that makes me forgive all his shortcoming " if only SHE would be similar, but never... it is just take take take & never give "!!!!